CLAIM IT...

i have struggled the past couple of weeks. dry and discouraged. yet, longing and desiring more of God. i could not put my finger on one thing that was making me feel this way. this past weekend, i was able to go to a special place and get some refreshment. the Lord used His word and my husband to encourage my soul. Psalm 141 describes my soul:

"Lord, i cry unto thee: make haste unto me; give ear unto my voice, when I cry unto thee. Let my prayer be set forth before thee as incense; and the lifting up of my hands as the evening sacrifice. set a watch, O Lord, before my mouth; keep the door of my lips. incline not my heart to any evil thing, to practice wicked works with men that work iniquity: and let me not eat of their dainties. let the righteous smite me; it shall be a kindness: and let him reprove me; it shall be an excellent oil, which shall not break my head: for yet my prayer also shall be in their calamities. when their judges are overthrown in stony places, they shall hear my words; for they are sweet. our bones are scattered at the grave's mouth, as when one cutteth and cleaveth wood upon the earth. but mine eyes are unto thee, O God the Lord: in thee is my trust; leave not my soul distitute. keep me from the snares which they have laid for me, and the gins of the workers of iniquity. let the wicked fall into their own nets, whilst that I withal escape."

i have never struggled like i am struggling right now with putting my eyes on men and not the Lord. seems as if certain statements against my husband, my family, or the ministry, in general, is really getting to me. i have to keep claiming the facts: God has called me and joey, along with our boys, to the ministry of students. i love Christ's church. i will sacrifice for my Savior. let no man despise my youth (or our calling). i will do all for the glory of God and not man. Col. 2:23, "and whatsoever ye do, do it heartily, as to the Lord, and not unto men."
i am also deeply moved by my bible study. i am learning to claim my promise land. "canaan" was not just for "back in the bible times", it is for me NOW. it is time to find each moment to praise my Savior and not pity myself.
i believe God has me right where He wants me. He has a lot of molding and making to do. i praise Him because NO ONE LOVES ME LIKE JESUS...