so today i tried to get things back in the swing. we have been traveling off and on for the past two weeks and it is just good to be home. i used a few days to just focus on myself and our family. needless to say my housework piled up. today consisted of laundry and some more laundry....i also reorganzied some drawers and closets for the 3rd time this month. seems like christmas brought more than we could handle. i do thank the Lord for all His material blessings on our family.
i spent over an hour today working on my bible study, believing God. i am a couple days behind. i have so enjoyed it. i do desire to believe God like never before. i am scared to know how i rate on a scale of 1 to 10. i have been journaling more in my personal devotions to help me believe God more. each week just gets better and better. just reading, this week, about amazing people like tozer and muller helps me to realize why He has chosen me. i am thankful you do not have to meet any special requirements for Him to use you. He takes us as we are and transforms us to what He wants us to be.
i already feel overwhelmed with the first few days of the new year. i have set so many goals and feel i have already failed. i keep reminding myself it is not how many times i fall, but how many times i get up that matters to the Lord. i am trying not to put too many expectations on myself, yet i want to stetch myself to grow more. when i look back on 2008, i feel i coasted through a little too much. i want 2009 to be more productive and much deeper. i am determined to focus on one day at a time and not try to plan so far ahead that i miss what is right in front of me -- whether it be spiritally or socially. i am also determined to make healthier choices for my body. i have been so physically exhausted. i know i need to exercise and eat better. these actions always make me sleep better too. why don't i do them -- laziness. i want the Lord to look at me and be glorified in every area of my daily routine. every single detail.
Lord, i feel i rambled today, but sometimes that is better than nothing at all. you know how to make sense out of the senseless. i love you and ask for your strength to help me glorify you. breathe on me...
1 comment:
girl, i feel your struggle. it's been only 6 days into the new and i have failed at all the goals i have made for myself this year.
I'm thankful for Christ, who was able to accomplish perfection. The Lord knows I'm in much need of grace, and I count my failures a blessing because it just humbles me to know that I am so dependent on his grace!
glad i found your blog.
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