BORROWED

When I think of the word borrowed I think of something that does not belong to me. The last couple weeks I've been a bit discontent about the things borrowed in my life. Starting Jan 2012, my world of comfy was turned upside down. God called our family to leave a wonderful church and move to plant a church. Leaving the only known of student ministry after 12yrs was scary. However, we knew God had called, we would obey, and He would equip. For 8mths we would drive almost 2hrs every wked to train our core team & prepare to birth Restoration Church of Greensboro. All the traveling began to wear on our family AND we wanted to put Caleb in school, so we asked God to give us wisdom and provision. We needed to be in greensboro permanently when RC launched and our home had not sold at that time. Our friends gladly loaned their RV to our family. WOW! What a blessing to be able to have our own space and feel somewhat settled. On top of our living arrangements, we also live off of support from others. God gloriously answered both our needs. Here we are 9mths later and God has shown much favor on our family and Restoration Church. Our journey has been unlike anything we have ever known. I have absolutely loved the whole process and seeing God like never EVER before. I will say there have been a few days, lately, I've had those "little talks" w/God. Ok, Lord, I know You will sell our home. It's been for sale 18mths. Can You sell it soon. I would really love a house again. I would really love to return the RV. I would really love to use our washer and dryer and not have to drive back and forth to borrow my parents. As I was in the middle of this pity party with The Lord, He reminded me that I do not own anything in my life. Not the house, not the washer/dryer, not my husband, not my children, not the money, etc.....It's all His. This whole life and all that's in it is borrowed. I'm even borrowed to spend a certain amount of time on earth accomplishing a mission. Needless to say the word borrowed began meaning something different to me. All The Lord has borrowed to me is what makes up my wonderful, crazy, blessed, and favored life. I will praise Him for all things borrowed. He completely understands my fleshly feelings & desires, but He also loves me so much, He is grooming me to have His desires more & more. May my time borrowed on this earth bring glory to The Lord. May the husband He has borrowed to me I love and give others a pure picture of the gospel. I pray the boys He has given me to borrow, I point to Him. The money, our home (RV), Restoration Church, etc...that He has borrowed to me that ALL would be found faithful and given my utmost ALL to make His name famous. May my flesh stay dead so I can be ALL in with Jesus and be found a great steward of the BORROWED.